Of Happiness & Respect

Happiness is cheap

You don't need 5-figure or 6-figure income to give or provide happiness
(but money can grease many rusty doors to happiness, right ?)

Happiness comes from little things around us, little things we see, little things we do and little things we share.

Another one worth to remember...

Respect is two-way street.

It's earned and given.

I re-learned my lesson - No PDA

Remember when I posted about my PDA with incik Suami here ?

I was carried away and buat posting ala orang takde ilmu. Ada, belajar dan tahu tapi tak apply dalam kehidupan until last weekend when I rearranged my book cabinet, I found the old book on marriage which I got during my Kursus Kahwin. Re-read. Re-read. And. Re-read. No PDA even in front of the kids. It's the most basic and we failed.

What I did all this while, dalam bahasa kasarnya = takde adab. Di luar adab-adab hubungan suami isteri. Tidak menghormati orang sekeliling. Of course la when we did it, there's nobody around us, but the fact that someone asked, meaning it's open enough to be seen.

I also watched video UstAzhar yang tgh glamer bg ceramah on UTiub. Walaupun halal it MAY lead to fitnah paling tak pun org menyampah esp to those yang not used to that. Perbuatan tu juga boleh dianggap tanda-tanda kehilangan sifat malu. Ouch !! Nothing to be ashamed about especially when admitting you're wrong, it's another phase of learning and re-learning.

So from now on, we have to limit our goodbyes (in public). More than that, do it in private (kalau stolen kiss boleh tak ??). Holdings hands is still allowed tho so jangan lepaskan ai sorang2 merayau di depan atau belakang kamu ye incik Soami.

There are no mistakes only lessons.

Ucapan itu mesti buat...

Blog yang dah masuk kategori separa pengsan ini mengambil kesempatan untuk mengucapkan Selamat Berpuasa kepada semua Muslimin dan Muslimat. Ayat kopipes dan sgt memenuhi ciri ucapan cliche.

Mmm..valid lagi kan ? lom bukak posa lagi kan ?

Selain dari ucapan, nak jugak citer bahawasanya, setelah sekian lama aku berjaya jugak pegi terawih malam pertama (di surau baru taman kitorang). Selalunya missed the 1st night either aku pe'ot or time tu ada anak kecik.

Peringatan untuk mak pak yg pi terawih. Kalau tau anak korang out of control, terawih kat rumah pun dapat pahala. Semalam Hannah & besprennya telah disidekick & dilibas dengan kunci oleh seorg awek kecik (kecik ke klu dh sampai dada aku ?). Itu the height of the event la, budak berdua ni duk dalam saf tepi dinding lepas solat, yang minah ni x solat pun. Elok je aku bagi salam last, dia hayun penumbuk kat anak jiran aku. Aku tangkap tangan and tanya kenapa, bila aku cakap jangan buat dia boleh buat muka. Nasib baik ko anak orang, kalau anak kucing dah lama aku masuk kotak transfer gi melawati tau !! kenapa melawati ?? Masa tu aku rasa berpuluh mata lekat kt belakang kepala aku. Anak jiran ke tak, aku peduli apa kalau dah sampai tahap tu. Memang la bagus ajar anak gi masjid dari kecik (ajar solat bukan lepas depa berkeliaran) tapi kalau dah suara diorg lagi kuat dari suara imam, cemana tuh ? duk WWF kat belakang, pastu dok woi woi gila kepala hotak sumer keluar...elok la bawak balik ke rumah. Takde la free2 aku ilang pahala terawih...

Aku pun bukan perfect parents and anak2 aku pun bukan la angels tapi...eh..stop jap, yang ko nak emo ni pesal ? Lapar ke ?

Sekian terima kasih. Tiba-tiba panjang walopon sebenarnya nak bagi ucapan kopipes sahaja.

Yes, I kissed him....

I kiss my hubby every morning when he dropped me off in the office

I kiss him at the lobby entrance

I kiss him on the lips (after his hand)

So ?

Ini adalah jawapan kepada soalan dari orang2 yg rasa itu perbuatan pelik/tak patut/tak malu. I know it's a lil bit of PDA but it's not a liplock. Just 1,2 seconds act to start my day and I'm lovin it !!

Letsss = Mari = Jom

Sia2 jek ada kawan keje LHDAnne, org kuat bahagian refund sumore

time e-filing, manjang sipi2 deadline haha

Kawan-kawan (yang belum buat) Marilah e-filing bersama2, semoga ia tidak menjadi e-failing (nothing to do with the system, in case I 'ter'offend org2 di sana hehe).

Selipar saiz 5

Just a note to myself, your dear daughter is no longer a small baby, she's now officially wearing selipar saiz 5. Same size as moi. 1panema no less, Ba-ta no more.

Theoritically, it's another phase of life where she expected you to be more 'friendly' instead of the usual mother-nagging-stuffs thrown her way. This is a phase that will chart her love growth as I now competing with her friends.

We might think we did the best as a mother but we may fail to realise that what she needs is a friend or should i say err 'friendly mother' ?.

Hammer that to your head, ibu...and babah as well. Think back when you were a child, would you like to be treated the way you're treating them now ? If you like it, good job. If you hate it, chances are..you kids loathe it as well.

Salam 2011

Lambat beberapa hari...tapi masih dlm 1st week of January...awww mak suka nyah bila ada ayat2 yg rhymes gitu

Azam tahun baru ? Yilek...

Tak yah susah2 la...dah 35 tahun penat pikir azam tahun baru only to be dissappointed with urself when the year ended without you achieving it. Kan membazir sel otak tu. We'll see what we have in store for 2011. Live ur life TODAY, NOW. Bawak2 muhasabah diri jugaklah..reminder to myself nih..

Kebizian Bulan Terakhir 2010

November dan Disember saya sangat pack dgn aktiviti hujung minggu yang bertimpa2. Acara bercampur2 antara yang tak dapat dielak dan yang sendiri carik nahas hehe

16 Nov : Travel by KIA to Setiu for RayaHaji
17 Nov : 'IdulAdha - wholeday kt kg sampai malam
18 Nov : Flew over to KL for 4hrs transit before leaving for Krabi
21 Nov : Back in KL, ready for work until Fri
26 Nov : Travel by Myvi to Setiu with my siblings
27 Nov : My parents pindah, whole day event until semua pengsan
28 Nov : Drove back to KL
29 Nov : Rapunzel@WangsaWalk
03 Dis : Hannah caught tonsilitis, sleepless nights till next Tue
04 Dis : Aqiqah MatRayyan. Nursing Hannah. Skip CIL test
05 Dis : flat flat flat. domestic chores
07 Dis : We went somewhere but I forgot..urgh
11 Dis : CIL exam & re-sit test@UIAM
12 Dis : Putrajaya, YankeesHut@Bangi
13 Dis : Tugu Negara, KL Bird Park, Muzium Negara, Hosp. Selayang
14 Dis : School registration & fee
18 Dis : CIL@PJ, shopping-sis wedding@JlnTAR, TRON@WangsaWalk
19 Dis : Ping Pong coaching session@BNM, KL Tower, KLCC
21 Dis : Uptown DanauKota
23 Dis : Siti di Alam Fantasi@IB
25 Dis : Rumahku Sorgaku - psg frame & lampu
26 Dis : Final Piala Suzuki@BJ Stadium
27 Dis : SRAI SgChinChin - Jualan buku sekolah

Yet, we still owe the kids : Muzium Negara, Zoo Negara, Planetarium & Pusat Sains.

Die standing!!

It's okay to cry...

A little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.

Finally, he went on his knees and asked God:

GOD... Why do women cry so easily?

And God answered...

…When I made women, I decided she had to be special.

I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet her arms gentle enough to give comfort!

I gave her the inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times will come, even from her own children!

I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going and take care of her family and friends, even when everyone else gives up, through sickness and fatigue, without complaint!

I gave her sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her badly! She has the very special power to make a child’s boo-boo feel better and to quell a teenager’s anxieties and fears.

I gave her strength to care for her husband, despite faults, and I fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart!

I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly !

Son, for all of this hard work…

I also gave her a tear to shed. It is hers to use whenever needed and is her only weakness!

When you see her cry, tell her how much you love her and all she does for everyone. And even though she may still cry, you will have made her heart feel good.

She is special!!!

You can’t make someone love you

All you can do is be someone who can be loved, the rest is up to the person to realize your worth.

** Found this while housekeeping my lappy yg berbaki 6GB sahaja (out of 40GB).

Take a deep breath...

exhaaaaaaaleeeeeeeeeee

Na, you can start living your life now...

Na, you can be yourself again...

Yes, I know that and I want that

I'll be leaving my usual 'playground'...

Yesterday.

I received a call.

'Our Director has agreed to offer you the post...bla bla bla'.

Calmly.

I said..

'I'll get back to you on the agreed release date, thank you'.

Click.

I put the receiver down.

Take a look at eager faces around me, asking 1 question.

I can only say..

YES, I GOT IT

And THAT will mark a new chapter in my career.

I will be playing in a new playground.

Not matter where, I'll play my usual games as I'm just a kid.

To Add Salt to Injury

From : *** Scholarship Section/Pr/***
To : ME
Date : Monday, August 03, 2009 10:35AM
Subject: Staff Scholarship Award 2009/2010

Dear All,

We would like to thank you for applying the Staff Scholarship Award 2009/2010. However, your application was not shortlisted and we wish you all the best in your future.

Thank you.

I'm not abandoning my blog...

Another 4 weeks in hiatus...I had so many things to look at now work-wise, household-wise. Dgn 2 tangan & kaki pendek ni, tak mampu nak kejar.

Angan2 nk edit gambar cantik2 pastu baru upload mmg angan2 je lah. Byk gila event yg missed, even those yg x de gmar...haishh.

Wake up wake up...will start catching up from now. Will do short one on Gold Coast, followed by delayed entries (byk woh..mati gue).

So, ni ayat2 mukadimah. Tgh karang ayat2 entry lain.

Daaaaa...

Hutang entry menimbun

Perrghh..

ala2 x sempat nak catch-up ni.

Gila byk citer x sempat nk dijadikan cerita kat sini. Even event bulan March pun bila aku ingat2 balik ada yg tertinggal. Sbbnya...aku klu nk recall kejadian tgk gambar dlm folder. Klu x bwk kamera time tu, selamat jln romeo la jwbnya.

Korang sabar ye....nanti muntah ijo plak tgk entry aku x putus2 pasni.

Warning kepada diri sendrik : Dah 3 minggu ko x jejak gym, dah 3 minggu ko makan minum sesedap rasa tok nenek ko. Tapi sib baik ko byk keje, siang mlm x leh tido pastu last week satu dunia demam..maka berat ko maintain. Pasni keje x bz, anak2 dh sihat ko jgn ngengades and kekonon risau berat naik balik. Lu pikirla senirik...

Menyembah Ratu

Kisahnya, arahan telah dikeluarkan ala2 sebulan yang lepas, tapi disebabkan bos kecik ada lagi kat atas maka tahap kedegilan aku n frens (2 balak hensem yg sama ketegaq) masih bertahan sehinggalah Jumaat lps, bos kecik pun kena turun...

From a 'lavish' and 1 of the most sought after cubic, complete with a nice view of KTM, Masj1d Negara and KL traffic

To this

So, I've to leave behind my kedai runcit, my personal cabinet and of coz my shuuzz until we move to HQ for good. Yang atas tu adalah standard ye untuk seluruh kompeni. Manakala yang bwh adalah...special arrangement...Arini jek dah 5,6 round turun naik tangga asik tlupe itu ini...in a way goodlah for my operasi diet.

Today 10th Feb 20o9, I'm officially stationed at 13th fl00r, in the new 'intimate' working area. Nak call personal kena kluar, nak blow ingus kena kluar, nak tido apatah lagi even during lunch hour. Too close for comfort. I'm sure all of them pun x sabar nak balik HQ.

Apapun...Akhirnya, mak menyembah ratu nyah...

Ting Tong

Aku tgh ting tong, fenin...

f.l.u

telinga pekak sket, kepala rasa cam splitting, idung srot sret t'paksa guna skill bernapas kot mulut. Tekak ku kagatalan and merempit balik tgh ujan.

took clar1nase which left me insomniac and hallucinating for 2 days. True. No exaggerating. Pejam mata jadik superman. Pejam mata jadik millionaire. Pejam lagik jd xxx. 2 days of no shut-down.

Last nite, bumm..gone. 'Yang, dah 6.30 dah..'. Rasa cam sejam jek.

For the first time, aku bersyukur air-con kat opis ala2 kong. Amin.

Terkilan

Just because aku silap bajet date..

I missed the last chance to hug my 2 best buddies who left the country yesterday and today.

Cemana aku boleh terpikir nak balik awal on Friday and cemana aku boleh pikir 27 & 28hb tu on Thu & Fri. Cemana aku bleh x salam2 n' peluk cium siap2 masa kat 1nsaf kekonon jumpa lagi kat opis.

K.Shikin, TQ for all the guidance, esprit de corp ala section 3...and many more

CT, TQ for being the ever cheerful friend. Happy sokmo.

To both of you...word can't describe how I feel, but I really miss the chaos and the 'happening-ness' on this side of the office. It's empty now. TQ TQ and TQ again...

Tapi tulah kata org..ada hikmahnya. Bye for now, we'll be seeing each other soon. Hug hug kiss kiss from me to both of you (and to my x-dept as well hehe)

Masih lagi...

Dalam mood sayang kengkawan & dept ni....

Tema : Gumbira

Seblom berpisah aku ngan geng2 bekpesku (lunch jua tapi aku slalu skip, tidoooo...) sempat la upgrade selera, kami makan besaq..memang besaq sampai mamat waiter yg agak cun tu siap tnnya betoi ka main course + appetiser sumer2 TUJUH !! Sure dlm hati dia..buruk lantak fomfuan2 ni...

Sampai jek appetiser laju jek belasah, kang sampai food memasing x muat meja tuh...

Adegan2 manja dan poyos sebelum lipstick hilang (sape pakai lipstik ?). Gambar2 adalah tanpa kebenaran tuanpunya body, harap maklum.

Ni Ila, Hana and Sakinz


Eh, cute plak awek seblah Ct Zu ni...

Mereka adalah GENG BekpesKu lalalalala Geng BekpesKu (sila tiru lagu Geng Bas Skolah untuk lebih mendalam dan bermakna). Aku pasti bujang2an x paham motif letak lagu ni tapi kalo makpak sure taunye lah...

Sangat gumbira di perut dan di hati. Pastu tetiba cam hilang ingatan, x ingat jln balik opis, tau2 dah kat bukit b1ntang..help help...

Tema : Sedih-sedihan

Org sebok pack aku sebok clickclick sana sini. Yelah aku kan setia di sini, jaga dept kot2 org curi brg2 opis...ada la org dept yg sayang kat aku tuh, x nak lepas...perasan adalah perlu.

Tema : Gumbira lagi

Pastu, dept kami kan ada ala2 kelab gitu pastu ada 3 team..team kami champion..dapat la $$ berhengget2. Order pizza..melantak ramai2...4rat++ gak la sumer2...haha Kesedihan akan hilang sewaktu operasi mengunyah, aku yakin..sangat berkesan taktik itu.

Me Lonely

Pause to all the delayed entries, this is what’s happening. Lintas langsung from my ‘new workplace’.

I think I’ve been denying the fact the current situation in my office is affecting me…quite badly…until today. When all the workstations left empty and when I have to search their name from other dept's IM directory. When I have no more real newspapers to read for free (supplier = Zaim1). When I have to tap all incoming calls asking for no-longer-around-colleagues. My breakfast mate are all gone except for 1, she will be going too…even further away to Down Under.

I looked around and I feel lonely…a bit sad and empty. I won’t be seeing all the familiar faces anymore. I mean they are still around in the company but all scattered and most of them are now in HQ. I’m not super close to all of them especially juniors but still, after having them around, it does feel different.

My dept is officially D1SBANDED, yes you heard me right, D1SBANDED. Though they call it RESTRUCTUR1NG, more fancy I think but it won’t change the fact that there are no more IT exam-iners in BeeAnnAm. All will be transformed into commercial/financial exam-iners (that’s ‘auditor’ for you out there). So all of us were ‘shipped’ to the new dept starting last week. It won’t affect the newbies that much but for ppl like me who has been pushing the job grade ceiling for the past 2 years, it’s quite demoralising. Coz, now you are back to square one, you’ll be rated as junior for the next appraisal. Not to mention the not-so-recent salary hike which did not do much justice to all the seniors. I mean having juniors who had no idea what DeeRP and BeeCP is all about but earning just 500 less than you who toiled for 7 years. How do I know ? Mmm..they proudly telling each other...

YES, I AM COMPLAINING, I AM WHINING. Gimme a chance to do that, so that I have a proper closure for this episode.

But then, since I won’t quit this place. I sit back and think. Semua ni ketentuan Allah, pasti ada hikmah tuu...maybe rezeki aku ada kat sini…I should not be looking at the closed door too long for I will miss the other opened doors, right ? Think about others who were force out of their job. I still have mine, earning quite a decent $$. Bersyukurlah sikit cik puan Zie oiii..

This entry is dedicated to all my friends who are now in JPOne, JPTwo, JPThree, JDSPee and one sesat girl in Pruden. I miss you all..huhu I’ll see in in HQ if I manage to ‘escape’. Thanks for the memories (Cecel1a Ahern gitu…) . TQ for being my friend, semoga sukses di SANA and now that you’re away, I would appreciate your online comment hehe all this while can do direct verbal comment maa.

This was taken during farewell for Abg KAssem, tapi sesoai la ngan tema entry aku arinih

To my breakfast mate, I will never forget our nasik lemak makcik jembatan + teh ais routine. Korang dah takde haku x de selera nak turun makan lagi dah. So hikmah dia, bley la sambung operasi diet yg terbantut aritu (ahh..x sudah2...turunnya tidak)

I miss those who are away (Hanom) and out of the co. (Gee and K.Mai) too. Suddenly it’s too overwhelming, I can’t and I won’t stop the tears for one last time coz…aku nak gi onsite plak pasni ni hahahaha wish me luck for I need it badly.

BREAK

I have an exam to sit on 20th and I've yet to start flipping any pages. Memang trait aku lah ni..study last minute mautnyer. 600 pages to be memorize. yes memorize coz the exam will quote all methodologies, modelling, examples and name of security-related applications available on the market an the Net. Kill me now...

So I'm taking a very short break from BLOGGING and BLOGHOPPING. 1 week oni hehe coz this 2 xtvts are sort of addictive. Once you start clicking, and reading....it's endless. Got a lot of stuffs to post but than can wait. I'll end this post with 2 news, 1 mixed of good & bad and 1 not so good.

Good & Bad News

We got the key to our new house sans the CF so no reno work can be done. No reno no move. No move no housewarming. So wait till the cows come home lah...huhu

Not So Good News

It's been 24hrs since Hannah last feeding thru the bo0bies. I'm weaning her off. I've decided that she should be fine with formula, fresh milk, tea blabla from now on.

sob sob...it feels like losing something, the bonding I think. After more than 2 years having her close to me, warming my body at night (it's time for babah plak..haha kidding). I've to do it for my own well being. I haven't had a proper sleep for the past 2 years. She' the type who'll wake up every 2, 3 hours for feeding..till now and she'll be holding onto it until my back felt numb. My back is hurting me. I woke up every morning feeling dizzy, disoriented and very very tired but life goes on. I normally took a 10-min nap every morning in the office. Imagine having to wake up every few hours throughout the night for the past 2 years.

I realised that long ago and tried to wean her off. All failed coz I felt the milk is too precious to be wasted, as you know I have aplenty. Last month, I checked myself into the hotel for tournament. After soo long, I got my 1st uninterrupted sleep, 2 days in a row. Wow...it was so good and I want to feel that way again.

I'm not complaining or whining coz breastmilk is the best thing you can give to your child. But when you have a baby who is soo clingy at night, in the long run it'll affect you phisically and mentally. I'm feeling it now and would like to put a stop to it. Mothers have to take care of themselves so that she can take better care or her family, right ?

Earlier I've tried so many tips and all failed, name it, bakawali, lipstick, belacan, kicap . I even put salt whenever she woke up but that also failed to stop her. And I just bowed after she cried and cried and cried. Hannah 10 Ibu 0. Last night, I wore a dress with no button and no stretchy collar, so she won't be able to pull out the milk machine. She cried and got cranky all the way and I made myself tougher inside, I'm not bowing out this time... She relented at last and requested for susu (read : formula). But....she insisted that the bottle to be inserted inside my dress as if she's having it direct from my body. Sian kan ? I cried and I laughed. I hold her tight last nite and we both slept like a baby.

Dear Hannah,

you were FULLY BREASTFED for the 1st 12months of your life

you were FULLY BREASTFED after 5PM for the next 12months of your life

you were FULLY BREASTFED during BEDTIME till now

I gave you the best-est and yummy yum yum-est milk in the world for 29months and I think it's time for you to let go. Gonna miss our 'intimate' moments.

From now on, I'll be missing your 1st shout whenever I reach home...'Ibuuuuuu...muah...nak nenen' [sila imagine Puss in Boots dlm Shrek]

I sign out with engorged boobies love

Tips: If you have the time and chances to prepare and bottle-feed your child, do it yourself. Don't let the maid to prepare, hold and feed them. It's your right and grab it while you can.