Another Sad Episode..

Next Monday, 3 August 2009, will be the day when my 1st dept in the Co. will be dissolved into nothing. People who were fighting for the 'function' to exist were no longer there.

I's quite a sad day for us and for me who grew with it since 2001. From a small section in a department, it was taken out to be a unit of about 50 and later upgraded to be a department with almost 100. Only to be reduced to NOTHING in less than 10years.

The management's idea was noble and and ideal but have they taken into consideration the staff readiness? Expecting a pure IT auditor to do financial and vice versa within 6 months is like...WhosTheFatherlah...So sick lah, telling auditees to be in control, governance, risk monitoring, communication, continuous assessment...blabla when in fact, u know... They should be checking & assessing the middle management instead of taking whatever bullshit & twisted facts these people were telling. Root cause, please.

I just want to do my work without being overburden with unnecessary stuffs due to other people's incompetency. I've been doing this for quite sometimes but I have never seen subordinate being 'USED' & 'SQUEEZED' like this. In here, it's hard to find a manager who can do their job, but if you want to find one who can kipas & ask people around to do EVERYTHING., very de easy. Tell you, even nak set date for meeting with someone in our own office pun kena call kami yg kat onsite ni. Dah kami susah payah dpt date, nak kata tolong konpemkan pun x leh. Kami jugak yg jauh dari opis ni nak kena call or email. Sanggup call kami back and forth daripada make 1 damn call to the PA.

Imaginelah klu benda sesimple tu pun xleh eh bukan x leh, tak mau handle, yg lain2 ?

So many restrictions on us as if we're not human. Cannot this cannot that, even training oso cannot attend. Cuti kena kensel. stay in the office = tak pi onsite ka ? pegi direct onsite = where's rose ? nak gi jamban = where r u going ? juz bcoz bwk pouch lipstick. Lama2 kematu jugak aku. Tabik spring toing2 la kat org lama yg bleh thn walopon 5minit skali ngumpat berjemaah. I cant be in a place where you HAVE TO bitch the boss like 24x7. It's killing me bebeh...stay & shut-up or leave & be happy.

SAD = JPFour
HATE = Treatment
PITY = x-Dir
FRUST = DeeDee
HAPPY = new Dir
HOPE = JPTwo
HOPE = GetOuuuuuuuuuuuuT

Being Birthday Gurl is 7th Heaven

Eceh..tgk tajuk..birthday GURL tu...girl konon kahkahkah opps dah dah jgn suka gelakkan diri sendiri

TQ kepada kawang-kawang yang wish thru HP, FB, and di belog ini..jadi episod seterusnya adalah menggambarkan kegumbiraan hati aku walopon sure akan ada org kata aku 'nyoho'...ahh !! pedulikan aja (meniru ayat bibik lagi..)

Oleh karna tektik hint secara terang kat laki aku x berjaya, maka aku dgn naked nekad tlh bertindak membeli sendiri hadiah idaman itu. Ala..klu bukan besday pon beli gakkan ? kan ? kan ? Nak justify la tu kuar duit beli barang mainan utk diri sendiri. Aku beli sbb bendalah tu dah nak pupus, aku x nak adik-beradik dia yg lagi canggih sebab...aku nak DIA..ish x paham2 ke ?

Senangnya dlm hati..lalalala

Pastu, aku baru tau aku ada sebijik henpon yang intelligent, dah pecah skrin sumer pun elok je boleh pakai..tiba2 hari Jumaat mcm sengal, see..timing baik punya. Org call x leh dengar sore aku...mati2 aku ingat diorang yg pekak. hello.. hello.. hellloooooooooo... pastu secara misteri angin xdak ribut takdak tiba-tiba '2 missed call'..apakah ? Sia2 aku kena marah ngan laki aku 'Apsal x jwb phone??' (insert muka b'kerut + inesen kat sini)

Rupa2nya ada org nak belikan yang baru..eh susah susah je, 'err tokei, wane merah ye'....TQ Yang..klu I x jwb phone anggapkan saja I tgh terkial2 nak godek menatang ni.

On Monday, sebab sayang laki lebih dari sayangkan Giggs maka aku selebret secara berdua2an. Ni kira tahun pertama (lps 10 tahun) kami dgn rasa x bersalah kuar selebret & dating mlm2. (time 10th anni. pun gitu w'pon pkl10pm lari balik ambik Hannah) Sbb malas nak jalan jauh2 aku suggest layan buffet kat bawah opis yg aku audit skarang. Man kata after 6.30 la dia gerak dr opis. Citer lawak masa aku tggu (bg aku la, tp mmg x lawak klu tnya Man erk.ampun). Aku ngantuk gilabab, godek alarm kt henpon baru. Bila sedar tgk jam 6.30, tp apsal kt luar gelap ek..tenung jam lagi..ceh apa aku mamai ni..dh 7.30 !! kelamkabut bukak henpon...ambik kau 9 missed call. Sia2 henpon baru.....maka aku ngan mamainya turun bawah makan apa yg patut.

Achievement, 1st time ever. I didn't hit the dessert counter AT ALL. which means I also broke my dessert-always-comes-1st routine yay..

Konon2 rasa x bersalah ye..blom apa2 tringat kat bdk2...by 9 dh rushing back. Given all the hugs and kisses at the door as usual and later they gave me these. Ni pasti tektik subahat dgn babah (coz he knew I wanted IsseyMiyake) but I'm still touched..especially when reading the card. Adan offered to read it..uhukuhuk berebut time nak ambik gambar dgn beg hadiah masing2 and Hannah declared 'Ni hadiah ibu ngan Hannah'..semerbak anak aku sepanjang malam :)

LOVE YOU KIDDOs

Kesimpulan : Bulan July adalah heaven

Note : Aku rasa aku juga telah mereward diri aku dgn 2 lagi henbeg. Dua2 must buy sbb harga gila..Dd dh tgk 1, Ezzah dh tgk lg 1

I'm Supposed to be Wiser Today, Am I Not ?

I'm 34

I don't feel like 34

But I like being 34 though still acting like 24

Too many FOURs

Happy Birthday to me, may Allah bless me & my family. Amiin

Hint kat cintahati to buy me sumthing on my wishlist. Only to be replied with 'Huhh??'..oopss salah strategi nampaknya. So end up beli hadiah yg diingini itu tanpa sponsor hahaha

He bought me a present yesterday, pickup this morning and later pegi umah Ezzah to selebret besday Irfatul Haifa. Ezzah & Izam, you both were doomed, you're now forced & fated to remember my birthday as well as my bibik's anniversary as my maid kahkahkah

Note : ManU will be playing M'sia AGAIN tonite, TQ for staying. Don't let me be booed on my besday, pls score at least 5 and let M'sia to score 1 or 2, ok..deal !!

Hannah's Birthday on 10th July 2009. She's 3

Since dah ada gambar yg boleh upload, jln la entry ni dulu hehe

Tapi mcm nak kena cerita jugak, kejadian2 yg berlaku 1 week before the party. I planned to do a real party for her (read: jemput koranglah..hehe) but on Wed, aku found out that she had HFMD..itu kakitanganmulut diseaselah, a mild mild one. Even the symptoms pun kluar sikit2 since Sat. Mula dgn dia sakit mulut (but no ulcer i.e. the classic symptom) & smelly breath..jenuh la aku duk telek mulut dia. Abih yg tu dia demam panas, sambung dgn mual2 mcm nk muntah then last baru kuar the rashes (not even blister, another telltale). The only thing yg ring the bell bila rashes tu kuar kat siku, lutut & bontot..dah lama baru nampak yg kat tapak tgn & kaki. Cpt2 call Eline since dia ada exp. Hannah being Hannah, memang x dak ropa org sakit...

So umah kami pun jadik la spital, bau dettol. Sib baik bibik boleh harap bab ni. Really appreciate her effort handwash baju ngan air panas + dettol and mop the whole house like few times a day.

Tulah kesahnya kenapa aku x jadi buat majlis. So since Hannah dh tau party tu apakebende maka kena la jugak buat ala2. Amek syarat ada kek, ada lilin, ada belon, ada present hehe cukuplah tu.

Bab present pun ada cerita jugak, jauh hadiah tu berjalan. Sib baik 'org tu' tak charge kos stor bergerak dia hehe Aku beli present masa Isetan Sale pastu sesambil tu tolong belikan borongkan susu Iman, when Dd picked-up the susu, aku pun gatai tumpang the present & my Visions double-boiler (yay!!) konon esoknya nk pegi ambik la nun di Kajang..Alih2 Next Fri bru aku amek balik from the same spot..Isetan KLCC. Sowii babe and sowi Iman, nanti soh mummy beli ye hahaha. I bought her another Lego Duplo, Supermarket set.

Import my sisters to do the cooking since babah blom beli present. Kami rempit to KLCC beli MegaBloks Mickey Mouse ClubHouse ngan Elmo which she wont touch huhu Adan& Along bagi Princess-themed kamera & walkie talkie set and Aciq bagi teddy, nicknamed Oyeng due to its color.

Dear Hannah, we love you so much, you're such a darling and adorable. Not too mention, cheeky. Cheeki-er than Abang..Happy Happy Birthday

I'm not abandoning my blog...

Another 4 weeks in hiatus...I had so many things to look at now work-wise, household-wise. Dgn 2 tangan & kaki pendek ni, tak mampu nak kejar.

Angan2 nk edit gambar cantik2 pastu baru upload mmg angan2 je lah. Byk gila event yg missed, even those yg x de gmar...haishh.

Wake up wake up...will start catching up from now. Will do short one on Gold Coast, followed by delayed entries (byk woh..mati gue).

So, ni ayat2 mukadimah. Tgh karang ayat2 entry lain.

Daaaaa...

Off Somewhere Down Under

By now...I maybe dozing off onboard of MH141 heading Down Under. A very short transit at Sydney, before landing at Brisbane and whisk-off by airport coach transfer to the sunny & chilly land of Goldie.

Yeah, I know the swine flu thingy but let them in Melbourne to worry about that. I've mask, I've tonnes of Dettol sanitizer and I will definitely will HAVE FUN...

I'll be back on 21 June. Most probably be given 'cuti free' for at least 7 days. Remember ?..the flu ? Adios. Roger and out,

Layak ke panggil 'MAK' ??

Orang mcm ni x layak jadik mak.

Aku x leh tahan airmata tengok gambar budak tu dlm paper hari ni..lagi meleleh bila dia kata dia still sayang mak dia...Sucinya hati anak-anak, kan ?

Wow...we're married for 10 years !! TEN YEARSSS !!

Not today...tomorrow it will be TEN, a decade, one zero, 10 years !!

23 May 1999 - 23 May 2009

Since we had some 'agenda' tonite and tomorrow...I would like to congratulate myself and hubby for being able to hold on to this sacred married life..

• no matter how annoying I can be
• no matter how you hated me when I started nagging
• no matter how bengkek you were when I kept on saying 'jap lagi, 5 min lagi' when you woke me up every morning
• no matter how disrecpectful I was to buldoze some of your decisions
• no matter how rude I was to give you THE LOOK when I was against you scolding the kids
• no matter how dissappointed you were when I gave excuses not to ehem ehem

many many more

I'm sorry if I were too dominant but then you have your own part that I have to bear with. So in the end we are to accept and tolerate what's best and what's worst in each other.

We never had a grand wedding

We never had a 'real' honeymoon

We never had time to travel the world

We never had enuff money to spend for ourself until lately

We never had so many things to compare to others

But we had each other when we had nothing else

After 10 solid years and 3 big kids I think we deserve to celebrate 'US BEING TOGETHER' in a more grand manner.

HAPPY 10TH ANNIVERSARY. I LOVE YOU

Hutang entry menimbun

Perrghh..

ala2 x sempat nak catch-up ni.

Gila byk citer x sempat nk dijadikan cerita kat sini. Even event bulan March pun bila aku ingat2 balik ada yg tertinggal. Sbbnya...aku klu nk recall kejadian tgk gambar dlm folder. Klu x bwk kamera time tu, selamat jln romeo la jwbnya.

Korang sabar ye....nanti muntah ijo plak tgk entry aku x putus2 pasni.

Warning kepada diri sendrik : Dah 3 minggu ko x jejak gym, dah 3 minggu ko makan minum sesedap rasa tok nenek ko. Tapi sib baik ko byk keje, siang mlm x leh tido pastu last week satu dunia demam..maka berat ko maintain. Pasni keje x bz, anak2 dh sihat ko jgn ngengades and kekonon risau berat naik balik. Lu pikirla senirik...

Selamat Ulangtahun ke-7, Adan

My keding son is now 7 :)

No matter how challenging it was or it gonna be, ibu and babah will be there for you. Thinking of all the pain that you have been through and the fact that you rarely shed a single tear even when they poked a giant needle or when they pushed 10-20ml of drugs into your body every few hours for so many years..it made me realise that you're actually stronger than me. I don't know how you can cope with all that...

Thank you Allah for the gift, for giving us this boy. This sweet dimpled smile boy. Ahh..that dimple brought me back to the moment when you were juz 3 days old and I thought I hadn't had a chance to kiss you before the surgery, the moment when the nurse noticed me and held the OT door with her legs, the moment when you suddenly opened you big eyes and smiled at me showing that dimples of yours, the moment the nurses cried with me when I can't kiss you coz there's too many tubes and I can't tiptoe with my c-sec scar, the moment that was carved deeply in my heart, it won't get erased.

Being able to see you growing-up, cheeky, sneaky and sometimes rasa nak aje 'bagi'...all the ups and down. That's priceless.

Happy birthday Adan, love you. Nak siku ke ? hahaha

Sudah berjaya, tapi...sikiiit je lagi...bleh ?

There's a lot of going-ons in my life now but I have no time to sit and blog about it.

Just to update on the progress of my mission to reduce my weight/BMI to a healthty level. I thot I've nailed it when the scale's showing...

53.5kg

sometimes 54.5 due to food & drink consumption. So I was thinking of maintaining and slowing down on the gym routines.

But after further consultation and looking at the body measurement print-out (hehe buat free kat kedai jual alat2 kesihatan). I have to reduce another 3.9kg because...

my body FAT % = 30% !!!!

Abg kedai yg ada muscle tu ckp...dah dlm range healthy sbnrnya tp skewed towards overweight. Reduce sikit lagi so dia jadik dlm range 20 - 27%.

Goods news, I've achieved the BMI target. Yay !! Gambor baru lom ambik sbb dh dkt 1 week x pi gym hehe . So now..the vain-ness in me started to kick-off...if u can get this far from (62kg - 59kg - 57kg - 53kg) than why not go all the way to 48kg ? Hahaha that's clearly not motivated by health reason anymore.

Distance Makes Heart Grow Fonder

Huhuhu I miss him so much...

There are times that I wish to be left alone...but when the day came I don't think I can survive without him by my side.

There will be ups and downs but I definitely want him to be with me...

4 days without him...turned me into one miserable lady.

Ayang, I miss you...come back home and we'll have another dive trip :p

Tips : Batu Hempedu / Gallstones

Ni tips dari x-schoolmate aku, Sue. She went through the sufferring and now fully recovered. She was scheduled for operation tapi dia cuba cara traditional. At the same time, aku googled. Those in italic is the one yg aku tambah based on En. G0ogle nyer info.

Bahan :
1/2 liter minyak zaitun (yes half-a-litre !!) - portion can be adjusted
Perahan lemon / any acidic juice (apple/orange/grapes) but lemon squeeze seems better

1. Puasa bermula dari pkl 12.00 tengahari - 7.00 malam.
2. Lepas tu, minum 2 sudu besar minyak zaitun dan 1 sudu besar perahan air lemon.
3. Baring sebelah kanan dan naikkan lutut ke dada
4. Maintain dalam posisi tersebut for about 15min. Ulangi sehingga habis minyak tersebut.
5. InsyaAllah, batu tersebut akan keluar bersama2 najis. Hijau katanya...(tapi bukan kryptonite)

Nota : Proses ini haruslah berterusan, jangan putus atau diganggu dengan tugas2 lain.

The most important things is the virgin olive oil and lemon juice. The acid was meant to soften the gallstones. For the portion, ada yg mention 1/2 cawan minyak zaitun dara (virgin olive oil) + 1 biji jus lemon segar, minum in 1 shot and masuk tidur. Without fasting. Ni utk org2 yg rasa x leh telan minyak byk2 la. Bak kata Sue, rasa cam nak muntah minyak hehe

Harap2 ada yang boleh dpt manfaat from this.

That was based on her experience. TQ Sue, she's now based in Sydney. Pengawas tau masa sekolah hahaha tapi pengawas yg cute dan manja...

MU..ko memang hampeh la

Kalau nak menang ko kasik jek menang awal2, ko jgn penat2 sampai injury time pastu baru menang. Sakit jiwa ahkak tau, sakit lagi chewing gum dlm mulut Fergie, tau je la kan, kalau ManU mcm nak kalah dia chew ala2 140km/j hahaha...

Sekian lama aku missed so many games, bangun pagi asik tanya Man, 'sape menang?'. Last night..aku missed gak the 1st 2 goals by R0nald0, tapi cemana ntah bleh lak tahan mana the last 15min. Aku rasa sbb aku nampak 2-2 pastu dh 80:++ kot.

Semput gila nengok depa dok struggle sampai la the young padawan kasik sebijik, baaaaaaik nyer curve 3min into injury time. Kan ke senang score awal, x la aku ala2 nk terjatuh sofa..TQ Macheda.

So now, ko main biar menang pastu jgn lupa doa Liberpool kalah. Tu jek aku nak pesan...

In Memory of Dr Haliza and Dr Amin...

The 1st part of this entry was written on Friday nite when it was reported that both of them went missing, I don't know why I was a bit hesitant in publishing it, I think deep in my heart I was hoping that both of them will be found, safe and sound. So I saved it as a draft, only to edit it again tonight with the sad news.

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It was reported in most of the newpapers today but I took no notice of it until I read it in Harian Metro while waiting for my order.

Dua doktor pakar hilang

AMPANG JAYA: Dua doktor pakar kanak-kanak hilang selepas keluar dari Hospital Ampang Puteri, di sini, dengan menaiki kenderaan seorang daripada mereka, pagi Rabu lalu.

Kedua-dua mereka yang bertugas di hospital berkenaan dikenal pasti sebagai Haliza Mohd Shafie, 53, dan Amin Tai Abdullah@Tai Yun Ming, 57.

Ketua Polis Daerah Ampang Jaya, Asisten Komisioner Abdul Jalil Hassan, berkata pihaknya menerima laporan dibuat keluarga mangsa memaklumkan mereka masih tidak pulang sehingga semalam. “Kandungan laporan itu memaklumkan dua doktor berkenaan, Haliza bernombor kad pengenalan 560218-08-6392 manakala Tan bernombor kad pengenalan 521229-12-5201.

“Laporan polis itu dibuat suami Haliza, Md Ridzuwan Mansor yang menyedari kehilangan kedua-dua mereka sejak tarikh kejadian,” katanya di sini, semalam.

Menurut Jalil, hasil rakaman kamera litar tertutup (CCTV) pada jam 11.30 pagi mendapati kedua-dua mereka dilihat keluar dari hospital itu dengan berpakaian pejabat.“Mereka menaiki kereta jenis Nissan Latio berwarna hitam dengan nombor pendaftaran BKF 304 iaitu milik Haliza yang berada di tempat letak kereta kakitangan hospital. “Selepas itu, kedua-dua doktor berkenaan tidak pulang ke rumah mahupun datang bertugas dan kereta Amin turut masih berada di tempat letak kereta khas,” katanya.

Berikutan itu, beliau meminta orang ramai yang mempunyai sebarang maklumat berhubung kehilangan itu supaya menghubungi Inspektor Norazman Zakaria di talian 019-2147899 atau Ibu Pejabat Polis Daerah (IPD) Ampang Jaya di talian 03-42897222 untuk membantu siasatan.

It failed to register in my brain earlier coz other papers did not mention any names or which hospital.

Both of them are our family doctors. Dr Amin was the paediatric surgeon, the one who performed the surgery to correct Adan's condition (Trachea Oesofageal Fistula) when Adan was 3-days old and continued to monitor him in NICU for the next few weeks. He was the one I asked for when nurses failed to get Adan's vein to poke the IV.

While for Dr Haliza, she was Adan's paediatrician since Day 1. She was very fond of Adan since he was APSH 1st TOF case (born and treated).
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Now that both of them were no longer with us, all the memories kept on rolling in my head like a movie. I knew them both for 7 years esp. Haliza. When Adan was in his 1st year, we met her on weekly basis, and later with a good progress it became monthly, every 3 months, 6 months and now as and when necessary. Both Dr Haliza and Dr Amin were good friends.

It came as no surprise when the police confirmed that they suffered multiple injuries due to hiking accident somewhere in Bukit Tabuh. She was an outdoor type. We used to talk about her scuba diving trips and other activities. I read their friend's blog, it was mentioned that both had reached the everest base camp before and scheduled to climb Mt. Kinabalu, again. They might be warming up for the trip...fate's calling.

Due to our frequent visits, we knew the trick to avoid waiting too long in her clinic. Hubby will rempit to APSH to get the number 1st thing in the morning, usually no 1-4 hehe and we'll be there around 10 or 11am coz she only came in around 10.30 or 11.30 after her ward round. ahh..memories

You know what ? For 7 years.. I've been putting off the intention to capture her with my boy..there's always..nantilah..one day I will. Now..Adan will only remember her in his mind, as he fondly called...Dr Haliza Adan, like she belongs to him mmm...From now on, we won't be meeting her jovial-self and hearing her saying her usual greeting whenever we meet her...

'Haniff Rashdan, my special boy...'

Al-Fatihah dan takziah kepada keluarga Dr Haliza and Dr Amin. We are forever in debt to both of them.

Things that happened in Feb & Mar'09

Wah..byk benda tp cam x sempat nk upload..gatal la kan, nk buat entry ala2 nk kena ada gambar. End up entry tarak..gambar kemana...

Tapi kena la update..kang lupa plak kejadian2 dlm hidup aku nih, which is the main purpose of this blog...

15 Feb 2009 : Along grading

Hanis ada grading (exam tae-kwondo) kat SK Sr1 G0mbak, untuk dpt Green tip, dah pass pun. Ni dia ngan..alamak..babah, ibu lupa lg la nama dak ni. Dia ni 3 beradik masuk ramai2 since she was 6y.o. Now baru Std 1 tp belt sama ngan Hanis.

Congrates Along, lps ni pattern taeguk yg lagi susah tau...jgn lupa practise double kick tuh (turning kick followed by side kick), asyik terbelit jek kaki tuh...nanti next time ibu balik kg ibu amek unipom ibu lak..leh la lawan hahaha..

27 Feb 2009 : Abg Nasir rocksss...

Jumpa Eton ngan incik suaminya. Itu pun Man yg point. Aku duk tepi tu berangan, kot nampak artis cam masa PGL aritu hehe

Ni lah geng2 yg melayan blues mlm tuh, dlm ramai2 sorang jek yg bawak bini. Yg lain2 tu samada takde bini or mmg tak bawak. Yang sorang tu pun sbb dh kena jeling2 (Dh la dulu pi tgk Chelsea x ajak, walopon kami ManU tp lyn je la)

Dh namanya bayar murah, ko tgkla dr jarak 20km...sib baik aku dh standby spek rabun ku. Lps penat2 nyanyi Bang Nasir melayan lak peminat..yang pasti sumer ala2 veteran....

2 March 2009 : Birthday Paksu

Anak2 mengompol duit utk beli present kat Paksu. Ibu ngan babah top-up. Beli airplane model from MValley.

Spt biasa acara makan2. Sumer lauk pauk hasil masakan kedai siam dkt sekolah Along, sedap weh hehe

11 March 2009 : Birthday Hanis

On her exact birthdate, she was a bit sad since there will be no party or mkn2 kat rumah nenek as usual, she got exam, only few of her friends wished her and then she was most affected because her beloved Paksu forgot to wish her. Paksu ni la...

Ibu n babah decided to cheer her up. Eating out, she got to pick where to eat, so she chose KFSee W.Maju...wahwah so the very specific. We called nenek & Nadia to join since Nenek was alone at home. There we go, in all our glory pyjamas. Hannah won't know that she went to KFC that night. She enjoyed her new stroller.

14 March 2009 : Small Family Do

Yang tengah tu sure la jadik birthday girl sepanjang tahun. Sumer besday org dia hijack. Dah siap potong kek, masa untuk santap. Mula2 konon nak masak nasik minyak, end up pi melilau kt Jln Ipoh carik pintu smpi petang. Sudahnya mee rebus versi aku jelah. Ngan sate kajang

Oleh karna, last minute ibu mertua ku request mau makan nasik, maka aku masak la jugak lauk segera. Sib baik ada baki kuah kari kepala ikan sket, aku campak je la ikan merah 2 ketul. Pastu ikan percik sket (kuah mmg msk & freeze for stock) and rebus telur, potong timun tomato campak sos cili. Siap...dah namanya last minit.

Nilah budak yg gumbira sbb dpt hadiah. She did not manage to get a new bike (bigger version) because she failed to memorize the sifir. Nasib la kan...

Babah gave her a new handphone, cheap one. Enuff to call and sms. Only to be used during Kum0n & taekwondo class.

Stop & Stare, Sure Nampak

So yeah, I've started yet another attempt to lose my weight so that my BMI will drop to a more healthy level, overweight doesn't sounds goodlah. I might need to go and test my cholesterol level next.

I maintain a diary on what I eat & do for the past week. There's a few hit and misses (like...1-foot tuna sandwich @ D0me n nan cheese 4 dinner erkss) . I'll publish it once I reached my goal, 50 or 52kg. I will treat you to my before-and-after pic as well...if there's abvious differences lah...else just my vitals hehe

As for now...have a look at my current prosperous body a la muscle-man and me camwhoring in the gym. Gym yg lengang takde sape nak pakai benda2 zmn dinasour except for me yg desperado. Enuff la, serve the purpose and I can hog it as I wish..hehe

Ni Malek N00r pn surrender ni, tak pun balak tumbuk tgn sendiri Shieldt0x...membunuh !! Gambar courtesy of Hannah, Ibu dia x sempat adjust angle bajet paling cun, dh kena snap..

See ? Told ya, I'm good in disguising my look. I look 'fit' n normal. I used the jacket to make me sweating faster coz there's dumb people who like to turn on the aircond and exercise in a freezing cold gym. U don't want to know what's beneath...I'll show you..later...Wish me luck babe...... yet again hahahaha

Note : I might not drop an obvious kilo(s) coz I'm doing some weighlifting & cardio as well. My muscle will gain some weight but yeah I can see some improvement on my tummy, courtesy of uZap (that I bought 2 years ago !! haha)

This entry is auto-published : Today & tomorrow I'll be in Subang Jaya, attending course on accounting..mmm I'm ready to die.

Hey you...yes, you, the other stupid lamb

Hahaha

Teman bersekongkol muahahaha...

I don't mind sharing HIM though he's now permanently 'at your side'. You can take McAvoy in full version since I'm still stuck with the Last K1ng of Sc0tland, yeah his bleeding face on his way out of Uganda...yet to see At0nement.

Frenz...my last entry has got nothing to do with Dd, I was talking about someone that NONE of you knew personally, not someone in our circle. But...lawak la the timing of both entries...

With that entry, we're now officially sharing the 'pemangkin'.

I think someone's CHEATING

Behind his / her spouse's back !!

Gurls our there...be prepared coz you won't know what & when it can happen. A marriage that SEEMS so perfect can crumble anytime.

Yeah...I know the grass is always greener on the other side until you crossed the fence and found out it was synthetic. If any of you are thinking of cheating or even just feeling like trying a short fling...

I would like to present upon you...my royal MIDDLE FINGER...

p/s : Guys..klu korang x hebat mcm Abg Jem aka Salih Yaac0b, jgn berangan nak psg spare hahaha

I'm in Dire Need of HELP

Ni gambar latest aku masa gi konsert AbgNasir kat IB. Happy jek tapi..cuba ko renung2kan gambar kat bawah pulak...spot the difference(s)...

Yeah reality bites.... some people said why bother, some take it personally, sensitive issue katanya, some said ok whaaat. Not ok for me...you can say that I have body image problem. I'm definitely open about this. I'm not happy coz I know that I can do better.

HELLO chubby-self...look in the mirror, at all the fat and flabs that you managed to hide (no more).

It's not a small matter when your own doctor advised you to manage your weight coz your BP is getting higher.

It's not a small matter when you feel light headed all the time.

It's not a small matter when you can fall asleep anywhere, anytime.

It'is not a small matter when you feel short of breath after 5-mins on threadmill

If that doesn't bite you hard enough then...

Look at your child...

When Hannah said 'Ibu bocek (boncit)...', yeah sounds funny

When Adan said ' Ibu banyak daging', yeah that's also funny

Wait until you're sick, then only you'll realise what funny really is...

Vain or no vain. I need help...

My vital stats (compared to Oct'08) :

Waist : 34inch (from 28)
Bottom : 40inch (from 34)
Weight : 59kg (from 48)

Funny moment :

1. Tailor aku amek measurement 2, 3 kali last 2 weeks. Siap ckp 'eh..betul ke ni..?'. Tgk measurement lama, ukur balik hahaha. Penat aku ckp aku naik badan dia x caya.

2. Aku godek cari girdle, sarung jek...selambak daging 'tertinggal' kat luar. hahaha tringat satu image animated gif yg tunjuk awek pakai girdle, perut kempis, daging extra timbul kat tempat lain..toingg...

Yang tak funny :

1. Genetically aku high potential candidate for hypertension & diabetese

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Dah panjang mukadimah (ye lah tu..)...nak tanya sket...

APA MASALAHNYA ?

Masalahnya, AKU..AKU ni yang x leh control selera makan or apa yg aku makan. I've started and dah turun but the moment aku slipped, it's freefall. spiralling dowwwn