When I'm sad, I clean stuffs...

Today, I'm sad but I have nothing to clean , so I've decided to 'clean' my eyeballs. Asal ada ciri2 cleaning jadik la..

Just to say 'I am alive & kicking bebeh..'

Aku sedar dan aku tau belog ku tidak berupdate berbulan lamanya...

Aku masih mengejar kehidupan baru ku..dah 2 bulan x abih bab catch-up lagi...

Azam aku tak nak bawak balik dokumen & laptop ke rumah lagi...klu bwk balik pun sbb nak godek gambar2 (maklumla software canggih2 dlm lappy opis hehe). Akan tetapi sudah 2 minggu aku duk mengheret laptop berat ku ini..

Aku jua berazam menjadikan 'filing mcm bdk operation' sbg cara hidup di opis karna aku masik terbwk2 tektik filing zmn auditor yg hanya berlaku slps habis audit dan kadang2 langsung tidak b'laku. Tau2 melambak nk kena shred time nak tfr dept..

Masa intervew kan main 'jual diri'..sampai la ni..klu org tanya section 27 of Takaful Act pun aku leh nganga lagiks hahaha hampres..apatah lagi menghapal akta 1 donia, dari UK, ke ostolia dan kini nak menangis tgk akta bahasa german, Google Translate member baikku...

I'm giving myself another 1 week to RECOVER from the 'catching-up fever'...ok 1 week...cukup ke ? OK kot..2 weeks pon boley..

Dikesempatan ini aku nak ucap belated and advance wishes, mana tau aku x recover sampai sudah wakakaka...Selamat Tahun Baru, Selamat Hari Wilayah, Selamat Tahun Baru Cina, Selamat Hari Jadi mana2 yg besday Dec, Jan, Feb etc.

Kepada yang merindui aku...silalah layan gambar ala2 paspot ku ini. Ni gambar waktu bertugas sbg krew majlis kawin adik ipaq aku. Jenuh tau nak tahan dagu..nanti klu sempat aku airbrush wakakaka

Another Sad Episode..

Next Monday, 3 August 2009, will be the day when my 1st dept in the Co. will be dissolved into nothing. People who were fighting for the 'function' to exist were no longer there.

I's quite a sad day for us and for me who grew with it since 2001. From a small section in a department, it was taken out to be a unit of about 50 and later upgraded to be a department with almost 100. Only to be reduced to NOTHING in less than 10years.

The management's idea was noble and and ideal but have they taken into consideration the staff readiness? Expecting a pure IT auditor to do financial and vice versa within 6 months is like...WhosTheFatherlah...So sick lah, telling auditees to be in control, governance, risk monitoring, communication, continuous assessment...blabla when in fact, u know... They should be checking & assessing the middle management instead of taking whatever bullshit & twisted facts these people were telling. Root cause, please.

I just want to do my work without being overburden with unnecessary stuffs due to other people's incompetency. I've been doing this for quite sometimes but I have never seen subordinate being 'USED' & 'SQUEEZED' like this. In here, it's hard to find a manager who can do their job, but if you want to find one who can kipas & ask people around to do EVERYTHING., very de easy. Tell you, even nak set date for meeting with someone in our own office pun kena call kami yg kat onsite ni. Dah kami susah payah dpt date, nak kata tolong konpemkan pun x leh. Kami jugak yg jauh dari opis ni nak kena call or email. Sanggup call kami back and forth daripada make 1 damn call to the PA.

Imaginelah klu benda sesimple tu pun xleh eh bukan x leh, tak mau handle, yg lain2 ?

So many restrictions on us as if we're not human. Cannot this cannot that, even training oso cannot attend. Cuti kena kensel. stay in the office = tak pi onsite ka ? pegi direct onsite = where's rose ? nak gi jamban = where r u going ? juz bcoz bwk pouch lipstick. Lama2 kematu jugak aku. Tabik spring toing2 la kat org lama yg bleh thn walopon 5minit skali ngumpat berjemaah. I cant be in a place where you HAVE TO bitch the boss like 24x7. It's killing me bebeh...stay & shut-up or leave & be happy.

SAD = JPFour
HATE = Treatment
PITY = x-Dir
FRUST = DeeDee
HAPPY = new Dir
HOPE = JPTwo
HOPE = GetOuuuuuuuuuuuuT

My own HERMES

Now, I'm the proud owner of HERMES yeah the one as in handbag. This one is Kelly.

Tak caya ? betul...HERMES.. tengok ni

I’ve never knew that paper folding can be THAT therapeutic. No wonder Japanese calls origami as an art.

That will happen when you have too much too handle on your plate.

Oh tidak..

Alhamdulillah, sumer ok.

Rumah mak tercabut few pieces of bumbung bilik tengah, so tilam lencun la...

Rumah babysitter tercabut bumbung bahagian tepi so dlm rumah flooded tapi x teruk sangat sebab air dr luar x bleh masuk, depan pintu dah buat ala2 konkrit tinggi dlm1 kaki. Hannah nak demam terkejut petir yang sampai bergegar rumah, menggigil dia pastu langsung x nak turun dr dokong or tido. Masa kami sampai depan pintu, terus dia sebek, cembeng. Peluk aku kuat2. Adan missed the whole action sebab dia tido dgn jayanya, bangun jek excited tengok air penuh kat luar rumah...hehe Along kat school, sekolah blackout sampai habis sesi sekolah.

On my way back, pokok tumbang sana sini, org tgh baiki bumbung sana sini. Tgk air sungai ala2 nak melimpah.

Luckily rumah kami survived. Baru teringat umah kami atap genting ehhehehe Cuma coffee table jek kena air sebab bumbung bocor, abih magazine kesayangan latest edition plak tu. Kat porch je la kena bersihkan segala daun maun and sampah-sarap. Pastu acara mencari selipar yg hanyut. Sib baik selipar2 mahal bwk pi umah babysitter and letak atas rak, kalau tak mau jalan....ada yang dah terperosok masuk lubang tepi pagar and sangkut celah pkok bunga.

So 'Semuanya OK'...cuma nak kena beli handphone letak umah babysitter, handphone dia sumer anak2 & husband pakai. Patutla call x dpt.

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Tengahari tadi kan hujan lebat, kat luar dah mcm malam, gelap gila, I sms-ed hubby and he said his office dah ujan lebat. Then...

Dapat call from my MIL, Gombak hujan & ribut gila2...My MIL's house terbang bumbung and banjir. Can't imagine my babysitter's house. Their house memang always flooded even hujan kejap2. Camana la budak2 tu, call tak dapat pulak tu.

My neighbor bgtau bumbung rumah depa pun tercabut. Maka besarlah harapan, rumah kami pun either tercabut bumbung or flooded. Na'uzubillah..aduii...

Baru je malam tadi sembang2 ngan jiran sebelah pasal longkang dpn ala2 tersumbat & busuk, dia kata sebab konkrit yg salur ke sungai pecah so kalau hujan air cepat naik. Kalaulah air busuk tu masuk rumah....

I Hereby Conclude That...

A 3D 2N blissful retreat in Redang

can be

EASILY OFF-SET

by

an 8 hours of express bus ride during daylight with 3 kids in tow !!

I'm mind-body-and-soul-ly tired.

So until I'm done with repenting and regretting (of my own decision), I'll give you the delayed posts first.

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Married or not.

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Fullstop.