Me Lonely

Pause to all the delayed entries, this is what’s happening. Lintas langsung from my ‘new workplace’.

I think I’ve been denying the fact the current situation in my office is affecting me…quite badly…until today. When all the workstations left empty and when I have to search their name from other dept's IM directory. When I have no more real newspapers to read for free (supplier = Zaim1). When I have to tap all incoming calls asking for no-longer-around-colleagues. My breakfast mate are all gone except for 1, she will be going too…even further away to Down Under.

I looked around and I feel lonely…a bit sad and empty. I won’t be seeing all the familiar faces anymore. I mean they are still around in the company but all scattered and most of them are now in HQ. I’m not super close to all of them especially juniors but still, after having them around, it does feel different.

My dept is officially D1SBANDED, yes you heard me right, D1SBANDED. Though they call it RESTRUCTUR1NG, more fancy I think but it won’t change the fact that there are no more IT exam-iners in BeeAnnAm. All will be transformed into commercial/financial exam-iners (that’s ‘auditor’ for you out there). So all of us were ‘shipped’ to the new dept starting last week. It won’t affect the newbies that much but for ppl like me who has been pushing the job grade ceiling for the past 2 years, it’s quite demoralising. Coz, now you are back to square one, you’ll be rated as junior for the next appraisal. Not to mention the not-so-recent salary hike which did not do much justice to all the seniors. I mean having juniors who had no idea what DeeRP and BeeCP is all about but earning just 500 less than you who toiled for 7 years. How do I know ? Mmm..they proudly telling each other...

YES, I AM COMPLAINING, I AM WHINING. Gimme a chance to do that, so that I have a proper closure for this episode.

But then, since I won’t quit this place. I sit back and think. Semua ni ketentuan Allah, pasti ada hikmah tuu...maybe rezeki aku ada kat sini…I should not be looking at the closed door too long for I will miss the other opened doors, right ? Think about others who were force out of their job. I still have mine, earning quite a decent $$. Bersyukurlah sikit cik puan Zie oiii..

This entry is dedicated to all my friends who are now in JPOne, JPTwo, JPThree, JDSPee and one sesat girl in Pruden. I miss you all..huhu I’ll see in in HQ if I manage to ‘escape’. Thanks for the memories (Cecel1a Ahern gitu…) . TQ for being my friend, semoga sukses di SANA and now that you’re away, I would appreciate your online comment hehe all this while can do direct verbal comment maa.

This was taken during farewell for Abg KAssem, tapi sesoai la ngan tema entry aku arinih

To my breakfast mate, I will never forget our nasik lemak makcik jembatan + teh ais routine. Korang dah takde haku x de selera nak turun makan lagi dah. So hikmah dia, bley la sambung operasi diet yg terbantut aritu (ahh..x sudah2...turunnya tidak)

I miss those who are away (Hanom) and out of the co. (Gee and K.Mai) too. Suddenly it’s too overwhelming, I can’t and I won’t stop the tears for one last time coz…aku nak gi onsite plak pasni ni hahahaha wish me luck for I need it badly.